so this is me procrastinating on an english paper. i'm supposed to be writing a paper on the significance of zodiac symbols in the book "grendel" by john gardner, but i really don't feel like it. school has been so irritating this year. its senior year and i so far have been more miserable then happy. when's the fun start!? between college essays and college applications, all of my classes, and home, i don't know when i'm going to have time for a life. i havent felt good these past couple of days, so i stayed home from school today and slept all day and it felt amazing and i think i should do it more often. i never lay low and just be me- i feel like im always doing something school related, so today was a nice break. i actually went with mom and dad to see the house that mom wants to live in. it's amazing and really feels like home, so hopefully all goes well with that. i'm pretty excited. i was supposed to go to a college fair tonight, but it doesnt matter because even if i had gone to school today, mom STILL wouldnt have taken me. she always finds an excuse to ignore me so, yeah. and now she has what she feels is a legitimate excuse - she's "withdrawaling" from being off her antidepressants so.. yah. whatever. maybe ill finish this up later. i really have to do my paper.

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